Oceans…..

First off, Ethan and I wanted to put out a huge thank you to everyone who has been praying for Ollie as well as donated to his GoFundMe page! You all are such a blessing and we couldn’t be more grateful.

This round of antibiotics has finally started to work and we are beginning to see

improvements within his cheek. He is still swollen and complains of pain occasionally, but there is no comparison to where we were two weeks ago. With the funds donated we were able to get Ollie’s application finished and sent off to Boston. Within just a few hours we were able to chat with a PA about his current infection! This was not their official second opinion (that will take a few weeks), but it was nice to know they were starting the process on their end.

Since then we have been in contact with a few people that have been assigned to Ollie’s case. They are working on assembling his chart, imaging and any extra information that we have, before it is presented for the expert opinion. I will do my best to keep you all updated biweekly!

This week I wanted to share a little bit of where my heart has been at. To be honest, I feel overwhelmed. I feel overwhelmed as a mom, as a wife and as just plain old me. At church on Sunday, we sang Oceans by Hillsong. This is a song that has spoken to me since it first came out a few years ago. I love the beach, water, and the awesome power of God that is displayed as you sit and take in the massive expanse that is the Ocean. As I sat in church, the lyrics washed over me,

“Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders,

Let me walk upon the waters,

Wherever you would call me

Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander

And my faith would be made stronger

In the presence of my Savior

I will call upon Your name

Keep my eyes above the waves

My soul will rest in your embrace

I am Yours and you are mine”

The tears poured down my face as I quietly excused myself to the bathroom. As I held up the stall door, I couldn’t get the tears to stop. Isn’t it amazing where and when God decides to find you. He knew I was hurting and that I needed that extra nudge to bring me back to Him. He knew how to get my attention, almost as if He was saying, “I’m here, keep your eyes up and focused on Me”.

To be honest I haven’t been trusting God lately. I felt like I needed to be super mom, and fix all of our problems at once. I think that God has gifted me with Ollie to be a gentle reminder that I need Him. I need Him daily to help me trust, grow and rest in Him. So as I work my ability to place all my trust in God, I am learning to look around for opportunities to open up to my husband, to learn to delegate my responsibilities and in general, just to ask for help.

Thank you again for all of your support for our little family. Your financial gifts have been lifting burdens off our hearts and for that we cannot even begin to say how much that means. Keep Ollie in your prayers!